Jessamyn Stanley (@mynameisjessamyn)
Favourite song or playlist for yoga:
"I have two playlists of the most random mix of music. It’s mostly hip-hop and a lot of rock. My go-to album is always Good Kid, M.A.A.D. City by Kendrick Lamar. But it runs the gamut. I love 'yoga' music [like kirtan chanting], but when you start to learn about different styles of yoga, [sometimes] you think that’s all you can listen to. I think that's beautiful, but I also think there are endless opportunities for cultural appropriation when you only associate that music with yoga. It's really important for Westerners to see that and still incorporate ourselves into our practice.
"[Culturally appropriative yoga] is totally normalised in our society because there’s a low level of respect for the very serious religious traditions that yoga is based on. So, for me to listen to different kinds of secular music, it’s really establishing a heritage for myself, so I can feel the practice and understand it in a way that is unique to me."
Describe your body in one word:
"Powerful."
Why that word?
"Because it is — in so many ways. It has overcome so many odds that I never thought it could, physical and emotional. If you spend decades telling your body that it’s shit, it is a miracle coming to a place of love with your body. If you talk shit to your body, it’s just going to act shitty... I spent a lot of time being really fucking negative with my body...and the fact that my body has overcome my mind, and I've managed to come to a place of trust and general happiness despite all of these thoughts, is amazing to me.
"I can talk about the bullets that have been shot at me by my friends, my family, my not-friends, my not-family, the media...but the most powerful bullets are the ones I shot at myself. And to be able to overcome that damage is powerful."
What have you learned about your body by practicing yoga?
"I’ve learned that it’s way more resilient than I thought it was. Something I hear nonstop from people who are larger-bodied is that certain body parts are in their way. Like, my belly’s in my way. It makes twisting and forward-folding very difficult. And then, when you see your body in these poses that you thought you could never attempt, and you take a picture of it — it may not look like the most advanced interpretation, it might just be the beginning of a bigger journey — you're able to see a moment that happened and that you survived. And my belly is there. It’s a part of that. I don’t just put it in a box. You see that, and you have to say 'Wow, it’s not getting in my way. Maybe it's my mind getting in the way.' I feel like I never had that conversation before I started practicing."
Has practicing yoga changed the way you feel about your body?
"It has, but I don’t think yoga is the main reason why... For me, yoga has been the catalyst. It has made me see how many boundaries we have created as human beings that are totally worthless. And if I can say the boundaries are bullshit, why don't I just say, 'Fuck you' to whoever or whatever? It happens probably 20,00 times a day in my life.
"When I go out to eat, for example. If you're eating and you're fat, it 'needs' to be really healthy, and even then people have opinions about it. So for me to say "I'm hungry; I think I'm going to get fries' in front of other people, I have to say 'Fuck you.' Stuff like that is what has led to me being confident in my body."
What is one piece of advice you would give to a beginner who wants to start yoga?
"Stop thinking what other people think about you. A lot of fat-bodied people will say 'I want to go to class, but people are going to stare at me, and I'm going to be the fattest person.' I really feel awkward about the fact that I'm the one that has to break it to you, and I'm sorry that I have to be this frank, but everybody is going to stare at you. And yes, you might be the fattest person in class.
"But are you going to spend your entire life worrying about what other people think of you? That is such a waste of time... We all need this proverbial slap across the face — that no one else's opinion matters but yours."
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